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I honestly never ever thought I would write this out or discuss it so openly but I have been moved and also challenged by the situation with Ellie in Barrow. I want to make it clear that I have spoken to someone in Ellie’s family and have been given the green light to post this and also Maggie Oliver. 

Another reason I am writing this is to honour my friend. I didn’t know her as well as people would assume as relationships between trafficked girls is banned but this girl was like my little sister, on many occasions I took beatings for her, took jobs and tried to keep her safe.  

Because I went and talked to the police and the gang found out, she was very badly hurt and while I can’t discuss what happened to her, this is for her! 

I have wanted to share this but because the fear of judgement and assumptions that will inevitably be made was high, I never have. However, if you are close to me or my family you will be aware I have been a missing person far too many times over the past many years, and the reasons for this have been kept quiet and never really expanded on. I have kept quiet about what has happened to me but I have been encouraged and asked to share my story now! This has been a very difficult decision for me to take, but an important one….. 

When people have asked why I have had a black eye or bruises I’ve made every excuse, from falling over to banging it on a door, being drunk when most people know I never drink!  

Everyone needs to be looking out for young girls and protecting them. If me sharing my story helps raise awareness and helps just one person then it will make this worthwhile. 

Essentially in short I am a victim of human trafficking and child sexual exploitation. The group who have been doing this in my area operate around Evesham, Worcestershire, Birmingham and the West Midlands but they have connections and ‘hubs’ across the country, including areas that  are very very similar to Ellie’s account which is why I am working with her family to connect the dots. These are evil yet clever men. They know how to manipulate, convince and threaten girls into staying, when they can’t they use extreme violence! 

The individuals involved have beaten me for no reason at all, just because it is fun, They have given me drugs to the point I was nearly addicted to a range of drugs, if it wasn’t for certain people helping me along the way I would be in a worse state now!  

I have been beaten in so many ways, I have been water boarded, burnt, stabbed, cut, fractured and broken bones. Because they know how particular I was about my hair, one of my punishments was to have it cut extremely short which was complete humiliation. I was sold to be raped; they have abused me in every way possible. They have emotionally abused me calling me every name and hurt those close to me in the situation to punish me.  

I have watched them seriously injure girls they told me I had the job to protect, I feel like a failure. It got to the point where I was being abused all the time and being hit and hurt weekly! I am incredibly lucky not to be dead already! I thought the only way I could escape this life was to get pregnant or kill myself. 

And trust me I have tried to kill myself, so many times. I did break! I used to carry on and look happy and fine. I used to laugh the situations off or make excuses for them, but like Ellie said, there is only so long you can do that for. I lost all my self-respect and I didn’t actually care if I was killed because at least then all of this would be over.  

I know now that this has gone too far and everything is not okay. I have been pregnant and miscarried and the emotional toll of that is one of the heaviest. I have memories that won’t disappear that I can’t forget! 

This situation has been years of me being trafficked to places across Manchester, London, Hertfordshire, Stockport, Birmingham, Worcestershire, Warwickshire. I have also been to other places as well as attending “party’s” locally. This is to have sex with men with me receiving nothing for it, while the men forcing me to do this received money, I received nothing!! I am not the only girl in Worcestershire or the country who has gone thru this or is going thru this. I know plenty of girls involved including girls from far away.  

I just want to reiterate now what Ellie said as I think she summed it up well; 

I want to encourage any other girl to go to the police and speak and also remind them that this isn’t a normal life. 

I hope me sharing this means that people can notice signs. If anyone suspects a girl to be involved, report it to teachers, social services, child line, police, parents. 

Parents gain trust with your children so they won’t be afraid to tell you things, so they don’t hide things, so they don’t become secretive! Don’t cause unnecessary drama which will push them away from you but closer to there abusers. 

Adults in responsible position look for this in young girls, look for them becoming withdrawn, acting strangely, look for signs of intoxication, drug habits, mental health, look for bruises that they are unable to explain, don’t rule it out, always consider it as a very real possibility. 

Girls open up, speak to your friends and parents, tell someone you trust, you can speak to childline, Samaritans, people at the woman’s centre. Tell the truth, you will be believed.  

Please also remember these men will promise you the world and deliver nothing they don’t love you, every word they say is a lie. Also remember if a man asks you to keep it a secret it’s usually because what he is doing is wrong, remember it’s not your secret to keep. Please also remember there are age restrictions on sexual activity for a reason. You should never feel pressured into having sex. You should never be bribed or convinced that it’s the right thing. 

I am very lucky to be surrounded by amazing friends that have always stuck by me and never given up on me even when I had given up on myself. They have always supported me through the hardest and darkest of times and for that I am forever grateful! They have always given me the strength to continue when I couldn’t find it myself. They have always remained by my side even when I’ve been filled with hate and anger towards myself and the world. 

This is not okay. 

No excuse justifies hurting another human in this way. If anybody needs help or a friend my inbox is always open!  

Please do not hesitate to contact me. 

I will listen and I will help in anyway possible. 

You will not be alone and I will understand.  

Like I said use are welcome to share this story if it helps just one person it will make everything worthwhile. 

  

#JusticeforEllie 

#JusticeforTayla 

#Justiceforthegirls 

#Stopthetraffick 

#Bodiesarenotcommodities