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Natural Thinking by Ria Walton

the frondescence of flourishing leaves  coming to life the essence of new life for spring the re birth of trees the birds singing their melodies sweet songs of morning nature alive with fresh new growth buds blooming their energy forthwith to bring, the floral...

The Three Girls Workshop

Three Girls Workshop With lockdown having restricted the hosting of events ‘in person’ the Foundation recently ran on online meet-up centred around the BAFTA award winning BBC mini-series Three Girls.  The programme (for which Maggie worked as the Programme...

VICTIMS’ COMMISSIONER SAYS CULTURE CHANGE TO SUPPORT AGGRIEVED LONG OVERDUE

By Ryan Hooper, PA Chief Reporter  A new, specific law is required to give more rights to those affected by crime, the Victims' Commissioner for England and Wales has said. Dame Vera Baird QC said a change of culture'' was long overdue'' to look after'' victims of...

“I feel lost, and I don’t know if this pain will ever leave me…..”

I  was abused from age 7 to 20. No one in my life knows except doctors/counsellors/helplines or the occasional Samaritan. I carry on every day like I'm absolutely fine. No one would ever know.   It's almost like having two lives which makes me very sad. I was...

Poem 2 by Michelle

In these eyes I hold the key, To a life you will never see. Beneath the surface of fake smiles

Loveartpix

My name is Dez (AKA Loveartpix) & I am a self-taught Creative Artist from Manchester. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder over 10 years ago & more recently autism, a diagnosis I am now beginning to come to terms with & better understand. From an early...

Poem by Michelle

I am lost in this darkness, I can't see a light Tormented by my demons, they come worse at night.   I am lost in this spiral of unspeakable pain Longing for a rainbow that comes after the rain.   My head, it's pounding...

I Came as a Survivor, now I am an Abassador

I initially came to foundation as a survivor that needed help. The only service that was helping me at the time was recovery, I had been laughed at by a few police officers and a member of the council had labelled me she was at that children’s home a home where I was...

I still struggle with the frustrations that the police did a ‘half-assed’ job and that monster is still walking the streets, free to do whatever he likes…..

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to share my story. It has been almost 11 years since this happened to me, and I have never tried to deal with it. I just tucked it away in a little box in my mind and hoped that it would go away. Recently I took the first steps...

” I feel like am locked in a box at all times”

Categories - Survivor Stories

Hi Maggie

Thank you for messaging me it as me in tears every time you message me as it’s just another way of feeling believed. I would love to do this if possible as am no good with words. My only problem is is I don’t feel I have survived I feel like am locked in a box at all times and he controls everything even though have never seen him since. 

Everyday am out if it’s shopping walking with the kids etc is face is there on the postman a stranger walking by and it takes my breath away I would love to help you on your website if you think I can but really unsure what to write You made me cry, not out of badness but out of relief.  Relief that I don’t feel I need to explain anything to you because you just get me am not gonna lie am an emotional wreck and I even googled why I cry so much and feel heartbreak everyday I just thought I was weird and others didn’t feel like this but am guessing am wrong I have got to be for my own sanity x 

I have tried taking my life a few times but something always stops me and I don’t no what because if they was a button I could press I would to end this feeling I feel  and the police made this 100 times worst because running away from that house in the morning the only thoughts I had was have been raped and he’s going to jail it kept me alive for them 10 hours of torture he put me through and the police dropped me as easy as he dropped me that morning like I meant nothing  am so sorry am blabbering on I don’t mean to but I could talk forever because it hurts that deep and it’s not only affected me it’s affected my kids have never enjoyed them like I should and my relationship fails everyday because I see is face I hate him so much he took my life without ending it xx

Thank you Maggie I love what you have done and keep doing Wish I had your fight I really wish he had ended my life that night o really do xxx

 

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